[ He's not going to lecture Ken about how living is hard; he knows that Ken is well familiar with it. There were times he wanted to give up after Miki's death, and the day after Shinji's, it felt like the earth had cracked beneath him. It'd been tempting to give up and let it swallow him.
He had promises to keep, though. ]
That doesn't mean that they get to decide everyone else's fate, though.
[And he was firm about that. His own life was nothing but misery but nobody deserves to feel like what he did. Despite his own opinion, he also knew that nobody had to be down to his level and die.]
...But I have to admit, I am scared on what will happen if we go back.
[ At that, Akihiko takes a small, sharp breath. He could try to reassure Ken, but - ]
I'm scared too. I don't know how to fix what's going on back home.
[ The shadows, the fact that Mitsuru has lost her father. Shinji's death is still a raw wound even now. ]
You're not weak, though, for being afraid. Nobody's fearless. We'll figure out how to be brave together, though, right? It's easier when someone's with you.
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[ He's not going to lecture Ken about how living is hard; he knows that Ken is well familiar with it. There were times he wanted to give up after Miki's death, and the day after Shinji's, it felt like the earth had cracked beneath him. It'd been tempting to give up and let it swallow him.
He had promises to keep, though. ]
That doesn't mean that they get to decide everyone else's fate, though.
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[And he was firm about that. His own life was nothing but misery but nobody deserves to feel like what he did. Despite his own opinion, he also knew that nobody had to be down to his level and die.]
...But I have to admit, I am scared on what will happen if we go back.
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I'm scared too. I don't know how to fix what's going on back home.
[ The shadows, the fact that Mitsuru has lost her father. Shinji's death is still a raw wound even now. ]
You're not weak, though, for being afraid. Nobody's fearless. We'll figure out how to be brave together, though, right? It's easier when someone's with you.