[As he listens to Akihiko, all he could do was sit in silence as he awaited for him to finish. There were so many things running through his mind but he dare not interrupt his senpai. Of course, Mitsuru managed to find a way to cover everything up. Normal people don't know about the Dark Hour nor did they really understand who Takaya is.
Gripping his hand, it only made him more upset that he allowed this to happen. And yet, the more he listened on, the more he realized what his resolve was. In the end, Akihiko was right. The dead aren't coming back and there was no way for him to fix what he had done.
With his grip loosening a bit, he gave out a sigh of relief. He knew why he wanted to come back to SEES, he had nowhere else to go. Not only that, if Akihiko was willing to accept him, it probably meant that the rest would too right? And that he was ready to move on. He didn't say anything but there was a small smile on his face knowing that everything was going to be okay.]
...Yes, I would like to. I'm glad that everything worked itself out in the end.
We defeated the last shadow on November third, and thought we'd stopped the Dark Hour. Ikutsuki took Aigis to the lab for repairs, [ And it's telling, that he doesn't call him Ikutsuki-san, ] and we had a small party on the fourth with Kirijo-san, Mitsuru's father, to disband SEES.
The Dark Hour still happened, though. We geared up and went to Tartarus and Ikutsuki was there, with Aigis. It was...
[ Despite his attempt to relate this calmly, he looks upset. ]
He said we hadn't gotten rid of the Dark Hour. Destroying all the Arcana Shadows was never meant to end it; it brought about something called the Fall instead. Sounded like the same kind of end of the world shit Mitsuru's grandfather had been trying to do. He'd been lying to us the entire time, including about Takeba's father.
He made Aigis capture us and tie us up. Kirijo-san tried to stop Ikutsuki and they both shot each other. Ikutsuki tried to make Aigis execute us, but she resisted him and freed us instead. Then Ikutsuki just... walked backwards off of Tartarus.
[ He drags a hand down his face. ]
The last I saw of Mitsuru was her going with Aigis back to Kirijo Corp.
[ He stops there. Again, conflicted feelings rise; had they ever been doing the right thing in the first place? ]
[That certainly wasn't the direction he thought was going. As he listened more, his face immediately turned sour. Looking in horror, he always thought that the Dark Hour would be over as soon as they defeated all the Arcana Shadows. And yet, to know that the opposite.]
I...
[He thought at everything was looking brighter and especially with how both him and Akihiko managed to move on from their past. Not knowing what to say, he looked straight at the ground as he tried to absorb what was said. Not only did they do the wrong thing, it also meant that there were responsible for bringing the end of the world.]
How...how could this happen? I thought everything was going well. I just...
[He was saying everything so quickly that he wasn't even sure what he just said.]
[ Akihiko's expression is mournful, apologetic, as he watches Ken. ]
No, it's not fair, but we know better than anyone that it never is.
[ He takes a small breath. ]
I hadn't had any time to process it when I arrived here. I don't know what it is Ikutsuki was doing, or what the Fall is. I'll do everything I can to stop it, though, and get rid of the dark hour.
[ He suspects it won't be as easy as punching something in the fact and making it better. But he's prepared to put his life on the line for it. ]
[Because Ken promised myself that he wouldn't dare go back anymore. He wouldn't allow himself to keep wallowing in misery after everyone knew what happened to him. He just couldn't. And yet, he can't help but feel nervous.]
I don't know why Ikutsuki-san wanted to do that but I do know that I want to beat it too. I don't even know where to start...
I don't know yet. Mitsuru's the one who's going to have to look into that. I know saying we'll do it is probably easier than actually doing it, but I still mean it.
[ otherwise a lot of people have died for nothing. ]
He must have been working with Mitsuru's grandfather somehow. I don't know how he covered it up, though.
[ Akihiko looks sad, for a moment, sucking in his cheeks a little and then chewing on them before he speaks. ]
Kirijo-san said his father was obsessed with 'death as deliverance'. I think maybe the prospect of living was too much for them anymore.
[ He doesn't say it, but it's clear he's thinking of someone else who couldn't live with himself when he says it - Shinji. He glances Ken over after he says it, too, concerned; he has no idea what Ken actually planned to do after killing Shinji, but he has an idea. ]
[In that moment, Ken immediately looked up at Akihiko in shock. He never said anything to him about ending his life. Was he that obvious about his intentions? He supposed it was as he didn't hide his own despair. Giving a sigh, he quickly looked away.]
....Then I don't blame them. It is difficult to keep on living after so much pain was placed on them.
[ He's not going to lecture Ken about how living is hard; he knows that Ken is well familiar with it. There were times he wanted to give up after Miki's death, and the day after Shinji's, it felt like the earth had cracked beneath him. It'd been tempting to give up and let it swallow him.
He had promises to keep, though. ]
That doesn't mean that they get to decide everyone else's fate, though.
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Gripping his hand, it only made him more upset that he allowed this to happen. And yet, the more he listened on, the more he realized what his resolve was. In the end, Akihiko was right. The dead aren't coming back and there was no way for him to fix what he had done.
With his grip loosening a bit, he gave out a sigh of relief. He knew why he wanted to come back to SEES, he had nowhere else to go. Not only that, if Akihiko was willing to accept him, it probably meant that the rest would too right? And that he was ready to move on. He didn't say anything but there was a small smile on his face knowing that everything was going to be okay.]
...Yes, I would like to. I'm glad that everything worked itself out in the end.
[Or at least, that's what he thought...]
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We defeated the last shadow on November third, and thought we'd stopped the Dark Hour. Ikutsuki took Aigis to the lab for repairs, [ And it's telling, that he doesn't call him Ikutsuki-san, ] and we had a small party on the fourth with Kirijo-san, Mitsuru's father, to disband SEES.
The Dark Hour still happened, though. We geared up and went to Tartarus and Ikutsuki was there, with Aigis. It was...
[ Despite his attempt to relate this calmly, he looks upset. ]
He said we hadn't gotten rid of the Dark Hour. Destroying all the Arcana Shadows was never meant to end it; it brought about something called the Fall instead. Sounded like the same kind of end of the world shit Mitsuru's grandfather had been trying to do. He'd been lying to us the entire time, including about Takeba's father.
He made Aigis capture us and tie us up. Kirijo-san tried to stop Ikutsuki and they both shot each other. Ikutsuki tried to make Aigis execute us, but she resisted him and freed us instead. Then Ikutsuki just... walked backwards off of Tartarus.
[ He drags a hand down his face. ]
The last I saw of Mitsuru was her going with Aigis back to Kirijo Corp.
[ He stops there. Again, conflicted feelings rise; had they ever been doing the right thing in the first place? ]
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I...
[He thought at everything was looking brighter and especially with how both him and Akihiko managed to move on from their past. Not knowing what to say, he looked straight at the ground as he tried to absorb what was said. Not only did they do the wrong thing, it also meant that there were responsible for bringing the end of the world.]
How...how could this happen? I thought everything was going well. I just...
[He was saying everything so quickly that he wasn't even sure what he just said.]
...That isn't fair at all.
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No, it's not fair, but we know better than anyone that it never is.
[ He takes a small breath. ]
I hadn't had any time to process it when I arrived here. I don't know what it is Ikutsuki was doing, or what the Fall is. I'll do everything I can to stop it, though, and get rid of the dark hour.
[ He suspects it won't be as easy as punching something in the fact and making it better. But he's prepared to put his life on the line for it. ]
That's my promise to you.
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[Because Ken promised myself that he wouldn't dare go back anymore. He wouldn't allow himself to keep wallowing in misery after everyone knew what happened to him. He just couldn't. And yet, he can't help but feel nervous.]
I don't know why Ikutsuki-san wanted to do that but I do know that I want to beat it too. I don't even know where to start...
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[ otherwise a lot of people have died for nothing. ]
He must have been working with Mitsuru's grandfather somehow. I don't know how he covered it up, though.
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[In his mind, it made no sense to why people would just go to great lengths to create the Fall.]
...What's the point?
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Kirijo-san said his father was obsessed with 'death as deliverance'. I think maybe the prospect of living was too much for them anymore.
[ He doesn't say it, but it's clear he's thinking of someone else who couldn't live with himself when he says it - Shinji. He glances Ken over after he says it, too, concerned; he has no idea what Ken actually planned to do after killing Shinji, but he has an idea. ]
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....Then I don't blame them. It is difficult to keep on living after so much pain was placed on them.
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[ He's not going to lecture Ken about how living is hard; he knows that Ken is well familiar with it. There were times he wanted to give up after Miki's death, and the day after Shinji's, it felt like the earth had cracked beneath him. It'd been tempting to give up and let it swallow him.
He had promises to keep, though. ]
That doesn't mean that they get to decide everyone else's fate, though.